Let Go

If you know me personally, you know that I am very organized, bordering on controlling.  I can frustrate easily, and deal with a fair amount of anxiety when things don't happen my way, or in the timeline I prefer.

Parenting a young child both aggravates that, and is a cure.  I find the more expectations I place on a day, the more disappointed I am when I don't accomplish what I've set out to do.  I've come to realize that if I plan to just be a good mom, anything else that happens is just a bonus.  I am much more patient and calm.  I can deal with upsets and stress with a mind toward the big picture.

It's not easy for me to think this way, and I need to keep reminding myself of my long-term goals - raise a happy kid, have a calm house.

So, my peas aren't in the ground yet, I haven't done anything with the front garden beyond raking and general tidying, and the garden shed is a mess.

That's all okay.  It can wait. 

And now I'm going outside to figure out how to plant peas with a kid strapped to my back.